"Probably massive disappointment. And even still, I can't think of it in a happy way. I still feel fairly, just a general rush of emotions when I think of it and not very positive emotions when I think of that."
These are the emotions Catriona Jennings feels whenever she thinks of the London Olympic marathon.
Despite being overjoyed about her qualification, Catriona was left battling an injury throughout the race which forced her to finish last.
This month, she opened up to the Off the Bench podcast about the effect that finishing last had on her during the actual event itself and when she crossed the finish line.
She told presenter Cliona Foley: "It was really traumatic for me, I just couldn't believe it was happening.
"It was a really strong will to want to get to the end.
"There was a time in the middle when I was just really wishing that everyone would just go home so I could finish it because I was so embarrassed.
"I knew I wasn't doing myself justice or my coach justice or any of the training I had done, it was pretty much irrelevant.
"I was wearing the Irish vest and I felt that I was letting the country down.
"I felt that I was letting the country down"
"I'm not even sure if I can vocalise it, I just knew that I absolutely 100% wanted to finish it and I was going to do that. I must say, in hindsight, the crowd definitely helped."
Discussing those who were cheering her on, she said: "I knew the points where my family were going to be and my friends were going to be, scattered throughout the course, and I think knowing that helped.
"I remember at one point going under one of the bridges and everyone was chanting my name and I was just wondering, how on earth do they know my name? I heard afterwards that the crowd were wondering what my name was so that they could really get behind me."
However, she found parts of the race very difficult: "It was a great experience for all the wrong reasons.
"Sometimes I wish I could just see the positives in it because I know there were so many positives in that day.
But she didn't want to quit: "I just knew I wasn't going to do that. No, I don't think I ever thought I wasn't going to finish it."
She continued: "When I was passing my friends or my family that the emotion got the better of me. They were still so much behind me and really encouraging me.
"I was just thinking, God, I just feel so bad for them. I wouldn't have been the best friend on the lead up to it because when you are training that hard... you become quite selfish.
"Even that they were so behind me, I was really happy and really grateful for that support. Then to totally let them down then, when this was everything you were sacrificing to get to."
Catriona goes on to describe how she dealt with the injury and the aftermath of the race.
You can listen to her interview as part of the Off the Bench podcast here:
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